Sometimes we don't get to decide how we move. Doesn't mean we don't have to deal with what happened.
[he's not the most helpful with working out feelings, but like, he's trying
chuuya's posture stiffens at those last words, though.]
-Don't say that unless you really mean it.
[he says it quietly, but no less intently-- he can't look higekiri in the eye, but his fingers tighten in his hair.]
If you say it and go back on it, I'll kill you.
[-even if he's not sure he actually can, as a host, he's saying it anyway. it's the intent behind it that counts, he thinks, whether or not he can follow through on a threat in the end.]
[ . . . the destruction was uncontrollable - according to his tattoo, wasn't it? higekiri thinks about that momentarily but will instead focus on the way that chuuya stiffens, the way that the fingers in his hair tighten.
and he just moves instead so that he can murmur into chuuya's ear]
I am in your care.
[and he presses another kiss right beneath his ear]
And you may be in mine - if you so desire.
[but he personally isn't the type - to make a friend only to betray them in the end]
[he can't say yes to something like that so easily. not yet.
but it's not an outright no, because he does like higekiri's company, and he sort of wants to agree to it. maybe that's just their current position, though-- another reason he won't.]
We'll see, all right? There are definitely still things I'll let you take care of.
[it's not as though higekiri expected an agreement - but it didn't feel quite right, to only offer himself. so he smiles easily enough at the compromise and eases into the different tone just for the sake of simplicity
and then he'll press their lips together again - though not without nipping at chuuya's bottom lip]
[here they are in chuuya's stupid giant bed, after working out the horny that came upon them... chuuya's been a little bit stiffer than usual, actually, and now that they're done he's taking a little longer to catch his breath.]
Fuck. Don't.... please try not to... touch me in public.
[he tilts his head into that touch, exhaling a slow and shallow breath-- he'd started off not allowing kisses outside sex, but the easy way higekiri offers the attention makes it hard to say no.]
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