Sort of. What you saw in that memory was-- my ability's something separate from me. I wasn't born with it. Corruption is what happens when I allow it to take over, but it's too much power for my body to sustain... so it's effectively the same trade-off. The difference is that so far, I've had it disabled before it could kill me.

[he lets his bangs be tugged, both his hands burying themselves in wei wuxian's hair, idly toying with it.]

...hey. If you invented something like that-- it wasn't because you wanted to use it yourself, right?