BOY THOUGH THAT'S, hm. That's, hm!! His first thoughts (after the bountiful whats zipping like lightning through his mind) are all different versions of what basically boils down to: haha oh no, I really did trick someone into liking me. It's not even entirely the past he never speaks of, it's everything, and he feels guilty and responsible and horribly selfish. Even now, he manages to keep the bulk of it off of his face - but considering how fine the control he has over his expression usually is, it's probably not hard to track at least some of what crosses this time.
Eventually, it settles into something almost melancholic - somber and soft. He reaches out with careful hands, fingertips ghosting against the sides of Chuuya's face.]
I don't think you're stupid. ...I don't think it's stupid. Haha, you're honestly smarter than I am, thinking about the regrets you might have so far in advance! I've never been good at that.
[Hm, it's hard telling someone "save the affection for someone who deserves it" without actually saying that, but it's hard just saying it, too! Haha, bad. Instead, he just settles on a succinct and quiet:]
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BOY THOUGH THAT'S, hm. That's, hm!! His first thoughts (after the bountiful whats zipping like lightning through his mind) are all different versions of what basically boils down to: haha oh no, I really did trick someone into liking me. It's not even entirely the past he never speaks of, it's everything, and he feels guilty and responsible and horribly selfish. Even now, he manages to keep the bulk of it off of his face - but considering how fine the control he has over his expression usually is, it's probably not hard to track at least some of what crosses this time.
Eventually, it settles into something almost melancholic - somber and soft. He reaches out with careful hands, fingertips ghosting against the sides of Chuuya's face.]
I don't think you're stupid. ...I don't think it's stupid. Haha, you're honestly smarter than I am, thinking about the regrets you might have so far in advance! I've never been good at that.
[Hm, it's hard telling someone "save the affection for someone who deserves it" without actually saying that, but it's hard just saying it, too! Haha, bad. Instead, he just settles on a succinct and quiet:]
—I'm sorry.