Some facts would still put you in an uncomfortable position, if you had them.
[which is the real answer to baren's question. no, chuuya didn't think that he would hate him, though he didn't especially want to know his reaction either-
-but more than that, he wanted to avoid the position it would put baren in, to have told him. the position it would put them both in, if he shared that kind of thing too easily and too directly.
a part of it was still the underlying paranoia, but it wasn't fully a lack of trust.]
no subject
[which is the real answer to baren's question. no, chuuya didn't think that he would hate him, though he didn't especially want to know his reaction either-
-but more than that, he wanted to avoid the position it would put baren in, to have told him. the position it would put them both in, if he shared that kind of thing too easily and too directly.
a part of it was still the underlying paranoia, but it wasn't fully a lack of trust.]