[ . . . it takes him a long moment to hear those words - to hear them and apply them to himself. higekiri has been good at deciphering other's emotions, helping them work through them in ways to heal. it's part of what comes of his long life. observation, perceptiveness, a quiet sharpness that is easy to miss.]
... Do not break. Be kind.
[he repeats the words to himself softly]
... Each time that he grew fearful that I would one day leave him - that is what I said to him. To not let himself be tormented by his guilt, to not become resentful of others, so that he might be able to carry the mission first and foremost.
[chuuya manages the smallest hint of a smile, there-]
We promised we'd take care of each other, didn't we-- so I'll make sure that you do. If you ever forget, I'll remind you. I'll be here for whatever you need from me.
[and his fingers twitch where they rest, there.]
...don't break. I know nothing's guaranteed here, but-- he needs you to stay alive.
[and maybe chuuya will also not be super okay if hige gets killed it's fine it's fine it's fine.]
he blinks a little bit at that before finally shifting their positions, moving so that he can brush some of chuuya's hair away from his forehead so that it's easier to press a soft kiss there. it's tentative, it carries its own difficulty - higekiri only became so familiar with physical affection since it would make hizamaru happy - but the emotion behind it is sincere]
... Mm. That's right. I have to be here to take care of you as well.
[that's another thing that he has to remember, that he'll hold onto, when he wonders if there is anything left for him to do]
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... Do not break. Be kind.
[he repeats the words to himself softly]
... Each time that he grew fearful that I would one day leave him - that is what I said to him. To not let himself be tormented by his guilt, to not become resentful of others, so that he might be able to carry the mission first and foremost.
[ . . . ]
Mm. I'll remember.
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[chuuya manages the smallest hint of a smile, there-]
We promised we'd take care of each other, didn't we-- so I'll make sure that you do. If you ever forget, I'll remind you. I'll be here for whatever you need from me.
[and his fingers twitch where they rest, there.]
...don't break. I know nothing's guaranteed here, but-- he needs you to stay alive.
[and maybe chuuya will also not be super okay if hige gets killed it's fine it's fine it's fine.]
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he'd almost forgotten.
he blinks a little bit at that before finally shifting their positions, moving so that he can brush some of chuuya's hair away from his forehead so that it's easier to press a soft kiss there. it's tentative, it carries its own difficulty - higekiri only became so familiar with physical affection since it would make hizamaru happy - but the emotion behind it is sincere]
... Mm. That's right. I have to be here to take care of you as well.
[that's another thing that he has to remember, that he'll hold onto, when he wonders if there is anything left for him to do]
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[chuuya breathes out a faint laugh at that, eyes sliding shut at the kiss, tentative as it is.
it feels like a good sign. he hopes he's not wrong about that.]
So make sure you stick around, Higekiri.
[and after a pause to consider, he adds:]
...if you don't have anyone else you need to talk to tonight, you can stay with me for a while. I don't have any more appointments.
[of course he cleared his schedule before coming to talk to hige.]
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[and so the genjis drop back down to 2.
but higekiri will just nod his head at that before pulling away again, going to retrieve the cd that he put off to the side.]
But... I wanted to watch this again. Would you care to join me?