You may also voice your frustrations, if you'd like. We can accomplish both.
[but apparently he's running into the speedbump of not having as much skin exposed to him as he'd like - and so that hand reaches up to the buckle of chuuya's choker]
You'd end up more bruise than skin if I did that, you know.
[but he sounds- contemplative? he's thinking about it? bad!
as higekiri removes the choker, chuuya threads his fingers back into his hair. beneath the strip of leather, the words etched onto his skin read: uncontrolled destruction & murder.
wrecking a ton of shit & also people with your ability is pretty high on the Sin List.]
oh. oh, the words half the people here were showing off when everyone stripped yesterday. the ones that probably say more than any of them would like.
and once that realization hits, he's reaching for the choker again, picking it up before he seems to realize also that it won't do him any good now. chuuya hesitates, then drops it.]
Shit. I didn't know those affected-- what are they?
[that's- better, at least, because chuuya understands not really having an option when it comes to doing things. if it's that kind of situation-- and if hizamaru is clearly around and alive despite this having happened-- then it's definitely not quite what it sounded like to chuuya.
... he told me that I didn't need to, even before I got to.
[ . . . yeah, it felt a little weird to him, and it shows on his face for once - higekiri is still new to feelings and emotions, after all. he's mastered reading them, responding to them, but having them himself.... ah, what is he to do.
but regardless he just hums softly]
You dislike people going back on their word - or betraying your trust, don't you?
[the side eye, and a few things that chuuya had said during trials and during that first weekend....]
[...hm. chuuya's petting his hair again, fingers threading idly into it.]
Let me rephrase, then. It might help you to say it anyway.
[he kind of gets it. it's not like he hasn't been full of feelings he didn't know what the hell to do with before-- but at that question he's quiet for a moment, before he nods.]
Betrayal's one thing I can't forgive. Turning on me or the organization, or killing my people-- I don't take either of those lightly.
[higekiri just hums softly at that before resuming what he was doing. he leans forward to press kisses along the line of chuuya's jaw, murmuring against his skin as he does]
I'd thought I was only answering a call from the gods... and yet I wonder if that is a good enough reason to harm one's own brother.
[he seems like he's finally thinking about it - but he's not the type to dwell anyway. he wonders why it bothers him now? but regardless,,]
Mm. To be betrayed... It's painful. [a brush of teeth against the skin of chuuya's neck, near where his words begin] I won't do that to you.
Sometimes we don't get to decide how we move. Doesn't mean we don't have to deal with what happened.
[he's not the most helpful with working out feelings, but like, he's trying
chuuya's posture stiffens at those last words, though.]
-Don't say that unless you really mean it.
[he says it quietly, but no less intently-- he can't look higekiri in the eye, but his fingers tighten in his hair.]
If you say it and go back on it, I'll kill you.
[-even if he's not sure he actually can, as a host, he's saying it anyway. it's the intent behind it that counts, he thinks, whether or not he can follow through on a threat in the end.]
[ . . . the destruction was uncontrollable - according to his tattoo, wasn't it? higekiri thinks about that momentarily but will instead focus on the way that chuuya stiffens, the way that the fingers in his hair tighten.
and he just moves instead so that he can murmur into chuuya's ear]
I am in your care.
[and he presses another kiss right beneath his ear]
And you may be in mine - if you so desire.
[but he personally isn't the type - to make a friend only to betray them in the end]
[he can't say yes to something like that so easily. not yet.
but it's not an outright no, because he does like higekiri's company, and he sort of wants to agree to it. maybe that's just their current position, though-- another reason he won't.]
We'll see, all right? There are definitely still things I'll let you take care of.
[it's not as though higekiri expected an agreement - but it didn't feel quite right, to only offer himself. so he smiles easily enough at the compromise and eases into the different tone just for the sake of simplicity
and then he'll press their lips together again - though not without nipping at chuuya's bottom lip]
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[he breathes out a faint laugh, seemingly content to let hige do the work.]
Good thing you're pretty distracting when you want to be.
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[but apparently he's running into the speedbump of not having as much skin exposed to him as he'd like - and so that hand reaches up to the buckle of chuuya's choker]
May I...?
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[but that's a host problem.
he pauses as higekiri reaches up to his choker, silent for a few moments. normally, he keeps it on, but--
hige's done this with him enough. if he's asking permission, then-]
-yeah, go ahead.
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Bite me each time you must censor yourself?
[he shouldn't offer that up so easily - but then his fingers will move to unbuckle the choker, and slip it off of chuuya's neck]
Mm, thank you.
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[but he sounds- contemplative? he's thinking about it? bad!
as higekiri removes the choker, chuuya threads his fingers back into his hair. beneath the strip of leather, the words etched onto his skin read: uncontrolled destruction & murder.
wrecking a ton of shit & also people with your ability is pretty high on the Sin List.]
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going to press his kisses across the line of where the choker used to be, against the words that are written on chuuya's skin
and then he pulls back, blinking]
I accidentally found your words.
[he doesn't sound bothered? like a little apologetic?? whoops, uncovered chuuya's sin,,,]
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[he just blinks at first? what words--
oh. oh, the words half the people here were showing off when everyone stripped yesterday. the ones that probably say more than any of them would like.
and once that realization hits, he's reaching for the choker again, picking it up before he seems to realize also that it won't do him any good now. chuuya hesitates, then drops it.]
Shit. I didn't know those affected-- what are they?
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Uncontrolled destruction and murder.
[his hand moves to his own collar then, undoing the top buttons and letting the words show]
It's in the same place as mine.
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...I've been meaning to ask. You don't make a habit of that, do you?
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Mm, no. It was one of my first names, I think.
There was a story behind it... but I believe that after a prayer to the gods, I had to cut my brother so that we would be equal lengths.
[ . . . ]
I almost... apologized to him this week - even though I never thought to do that before.
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[that's- better, at least, because chuuya understands not really having an option when it comes to doing things. if it's that kind of situation-- and if hizamaru is clearly around and alive despite this having happened-- then it's definitely not quite what it sounded like to chuuya.
after a long pause, he hums quietly.]
It might not hurt to tell him that, I think.
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[ . . . yeah, it felt a little weird to him, and it shows on his face for once - higekiri is still new to feelings and emotions, after all. he's mastered reading them, responding to them, but having them himself.... ah, what is he to do.
but regardless he just hums softly]
You dislike people going back on their word - or betraying your trust, don't you?
[the side eye, and a few things that chuuya had said during trials and during that first weekend....]
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Let me rephrase, then. It might help you to say it anyway.
[he kind of gets it. it's not like he hasn't been full of feelings he didn't know what the hell to do with before-- but at that question he's quiet for a moment, before he nods.]
Betrayal's one thing I can't forgive. Turning on me or the organization, or killing my people-- I don't take either of those lightly.
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I'd thought I was only answering a call from the gods... and yet I wonder if that is a good enough reason to harm one's own brother.
[he seems like he's finally thinking about it - but he's not the type to dwell anyway. he wonders why it bothers him now? but regardless,,]
Mm. To be betrayed... It's painful. [a brush of teeth against the skin of chuuya's neck, near where his words begin] I won't do that to you.
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[he's not the most helpful with working out feelings, but like, he's trying
chuuya's posture stiffens at those last words, though.]
-Don't say that unless you really mean it.
[he says it quietly, but no less intently-- he can't look higekiri in the eye, but his fingers tighten in his hair.]
If you say it and go back on it, I'll kill you.
[-even if he's not sure he actually can, as a host, he's saying it anyway. it's the intent behind it that counts, he thinks, whether or not he can follow through on a threat in the end.]
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and he just moves instead so that he can murmur into chuuya's ear]
I am in your care.
[and he presses another kiss right beneath his ear]
And you may be in mine - if you so desire.
[but he personally isn't the type - to make a friend only to betray them in the end]
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[he can't say yes to something like that so easily. not yet.
but it's not an outright no, because he does like higekiri's company, and he sort of wants to agree to it. maybe that's just their current position, though-- another reason he won't.]
We'll see, all right? There are definitely still things I'll let you take care of.
[like, you know, in a sexy way,]
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and then he'll press their lips together again - though not without nipping at chuuya's bottom lip]
Anything that comes to mind?