chuuya "be gay do crimes" nakahara ([personal profile] doublesmall) wrote2019-10-13 08:02 pm
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banzais: (» into the arms)

[personal profile] banzais 2019-10-30 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[well, he changed out of his costume, for one. otherwise he drops the smile and seems to be putting his shirt back on. it's more of an aura than an action that gives him away. his usual easy grace that implies that nothing can quite touch him has disappeared, like he's all but been grounded into the earth.

it steals any trace of a smile from his face up until he actually makes eye contact with chuuya - and then he attempts one. it's a good replica of his genuine smile, though it lacks a bit of light]


Mm, thank you.

[a beat]

He's gone, isn't he? To where um... Polly and Carlos are.

[hiza said that he won't believe that dimitri is truly gone until they get confirmation

so hige wants that first]
banzais: (» i'll keep it around)

[personal profile] banzais 2019-10-31 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
[oh.

higekiri asks a lot of questions that are doomed to be censored. he knows that. he knows it well. and plenty of times, he's taken it in stride because it's not chuuya's fault. even now, it's not chuuya's fault.

and yet - this is the first time that he feels this emotion.

disappointment.

his expression wears it obviously - the pain, the fall, the fact that he can't rest without the confirmation - but his mouth says]


... mm, that's okay.

[it's not. but still he'll lean down to press a kiss to chuuya's cheek.]

I just might not be able to stay very long today.

[because that means

he has to keep looking]
banzais: (» today the world)

[personal profile] banzais 2019-10-31 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
[even now, he leans into the touch. follows after the pattern they've set, chases after the touch and the bits of affection. it doesn't do much for the feeling in his chest, but it helps.

up until he moves to press their lips together instead, because that is also habit - and he worries over the way that chuuya reacts. he must not have been very convincing. what a failing of a treasure.]


... I know you always try to give what you can.
banzais: (» i will be fine;)

[personal profile] banzais 2019-10-31 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
[higekiri pauses - and nods.]

Nikori and my other brother, Grune, both possess roles.

[he's been busy which i hate]

Whatever it is... I'll take it.
banzais: (» don't let me down)

[personal profile] banzais 2019-10-31 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
[well gee

thanks

he hates it.

if nothing else, it gives higekiri something to focus on.]


... If I keep looking, is it somewhere that I already have access to? Or is it someplace that is yet available to me?

Some... person?
banzais: (» how we got here)

[personal profile] banzais 2019-10-31 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
Oh...

[he nods. it's hard to say if he feels better, but the mission distracts him enough from his struggles. he'll just go to sit on the arm of chuuya's chair again]

Someone who lacks the ability to cook? Mm... I will speak with both Her Lordship and Wukiri then.

Does another possess the ability to be awake even on Thursdays then, if I cannot ask for something like that either?
banzais: (» are you listening to me?)

[personal profile] banzais 2019-10-31 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
[he doesn't mind the arm, pausing at the explanation]

Oh...?

[ . . . ]

Hmm, well, I'll still come by each day, and what happens can happen.

[it's a little funny - he remembers chuuya asking him this before, if higekiri would still keep coming to see him even if he didn't have to.

he figures he might as well stick to his word.]