[...that's a lot. But he gets the feeling, has felt that desire to make people regret-- for a moment, he's somewhat grateful he doesn't remember anything they must have done to him to integrate him with his ability, because he has no doubt that it wasn't kind.
It's a little hard to watch, but then he's used to hard things and to the fact that the world is just like this; he doesn't flinch from it, just exhales a slow and heavy breath once the memory and the barrier have both broken, and all he has to say at first is:]
[It still isn't time yet. And they are loathsome, but they have enemies in common.]
It would have been pointless. Those people are not the cause of what happened. Strike them down and others will take their place. I mean to destroy all of it. The nobility that sought to seize power this way, the crests that are the source of their fanaticism, the church that teaches them to believe these things. When I have conquered all of Fodlan, these things will be confined to history, and a thousand innocents just like my siblings will be spared suffering. And then, once that is accomplished, I can pursue my petty vengeance against these monsters.
And that is why I must not remain here, Chuuya. I must return home. The path I set out on that day is still waiting for me.
[-he can't help but crack a faint grin at that, actually, giving his head a slight shake.]
You know-- that all sounds sort of like someone I know, back home. I think the Boss would've approved of your methods.
[It sounds similar to his methodology. Prolonging things like revenge for the sake of what needs to happen, conquering for the sake of fixing a bad situation... those are things Chuuya understands, even if he's often more driven by the urge to take revenge himself. But that's why he's not the one at the top.]
...we'll do what we can to get people out of here. Promise you that. I've got work to get back to myself-- not as big as yours, sure, but I don't really intend to let myself get stuck here forever either.
[She sighs. He's seen this very personal part of her now - a part she's only ever shared with those closest to her - but that doesn't mean she can trust him any more than she did before. And yet, she sort of wants to. It's lonely, to carry all of this alone.]
I told you before. I'm not accustomed to relying on others to do my work for me. And what Polly has asked me to do is unacceptable if I don't know whether I'm misusing it in a way that will help the demons evade destruction.
If Polly doesn't know, then I definitely don't-- I know what she's running with you guys, but I can answer less than she can about it.
[he pauses there, though, considering a moment.]
...but it might be good that you're not used to that. I have a feeling that we need someone like you around here to help figure out what's going on-- someone we can count on to do what they have to, when it comes to it.
Ominous. [It doesn't sound like Chuuya is suggesting an ending here where everyone holds hands and wishes away the demon. There are things that some of the others might not have the nerve to do. She nods, however.]
I can. I will.
[After a moment.] You never told me, you know, what they did to you. You've seen my secrets now. Tell me yours.
I'm not the kind of optimist Carly apparently is, all right.
[They've already lost people-- he's not sure what that means for them, in the end.
... and he's quiet, for a few moments, when she prompts him-- but she's not wrong. He's seen hers, and it feels a little like she has a better chance of getting it than most here.]
My ability's not mine. I'm an experiment in creating artificial gifted-- I just didn't have the full picture, in what you saw. The first time it was fully unleashed, the rumor was that some kind of god's wrath did it; I knew it was my doing, but not anything about myself.
[It was all he had to go on, and what kind of kid destroys part of a city and assumes they're still human with those kinds of whispers going around?]
So in other worlds, the same type of schemes to occur. That is good to know. If I am to create a world free of such cruel experiments, I must anticipate that.
[She does get it, and her attitude towards him softens a little. You do learn to create hard barriers around yourself, when that is your only means of survival.]
I knew a woman, when I was a student. As an infant, some magic was done to her, and a being -- a being some view as a goddess -- was put inside her. I don't know whether that being was good or evil, but I do know the infant was intended to become nothing more than a vessel for her. A tool of the church. A weapon to be used against heretics like myself.
Nonetheless, she made her own choices, and was the bravest person I've ever known.
So I find it easy to believe you have made your own choices as well. Easier now, perhaps. I had thought all four of you might have become the tools of something else. [But it sounds like she no longer thinks so?
Hope this change of heart doesn't bite me, Siz, in the ass.]
[Because he has little doubt about what they intended him to be. You don't create someone with his kind of power unless you want a weapon to unleash, and he knows well enough how hard it is to move past that.]
Then she must have been someone strong, if she could go against it. I never had to deal with the people who ran those experiments myself.
[Technically. He did probably kill them without actively intending on it.
He sets that thought aside, managing a faint grin at her words.]
But I got there eventually, yeah-- I think I've done pretty well for myself. The boss is the only one I'll let myself be a tool for, and I gave myself out of my own volition that time.
[After a moment where it seems like he might have finished, he adds:]
If we were from the same place, though... I think you might be the kind of person I could have followed, too.
[She smiles at that comment, a little wry, since here she isn't exactly a leader.]
If it is so, then let follow me here, to the best you are able within the confines of your role. I ask no one for unearned fealty; only that you lend me your strength when the time comes.
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It's a little hard to watch, but then he's used to hard things and to the fact that the world is just like this; he doesn't flinch from it, just exhales a slow and heavy breath once the memory and the barrier have both broken, and all he has to say at first is:]
Did you kill them?
[Sounds a lot like he sure hopes she did.]
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[It still isn't time yet. And they are loathsome, but they have enemies in common.]
It would have been pointless. Those people are not the cause of what happened. Strike them down and others will take their place. I mean to destroy all of it. The nobility that sought to seize power this way, the crests that are the source of their fanaticism, the church that teaches them to believe these things. When I have conquered all of Fodlan, these things will be confined to history, and a thousand innocents just like my siblings will be spared suffering. And then, once that is accomplished, I can pursue my petty vengeance against these monsters.
And that is why I must not remain here, Chuuya. I must return home. The path I set out on that day is still waiting for me.
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You know-- that all sounds sort of like someone I know, back home. I think the Boss would've approved of your methods.
[It sounds similar to his methodology. Prolonging things like revenge for the sake of what needs to happen, conquering for the sake of fixing a bad situation... those are things Chuuya understands, even if he's often more driven by the urge to take revenge himself. But that's why he's not the one at the top.]
...we'll do what we can to get people out of here. Promise you that. I've got work to get back to myself-- not as big as yours, sure, but I don't really intend to let myself get stuck here forever either.
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I told you before. I'm not accustomed to relying on others to do my work for me. And what Polly has asked me to do is unacceptable if I don't know whether I'm misusing it in a way that will help the demons evade destruction.
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[he pauses there, though, considering a moment.]
...but it might be good that you're not used to that. I have a feeling that we need someone like you around here to help figure out what's going on-- someone we can count on to do what they have to, when it comes to it.
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I can. I will.
[After a moment.] You never told me, you know, what they did to you. You've seen my secrets now. Tell me yours.
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[They've already lost people-- he's not sure what that means for them, in the end.
... and he's quiet, for a few moments, when she prompts him-- but she's not wrong. He's seen hers, and it feels a little like she has a better chance of getting it than most here.]
My ability's not mine. I'm an experiment in creating artificial gifted-- I just didn't have the full picture, in what you saw. The first time it was fully unleashed, the rumor was that some kind of god's wrath did it; I knew it was my doing, but not anything about myself.
[It was all he had to go on, and what kind of kid destroys part of a city and assumes they're still human with those kinds of whispers going around?]
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[She does get it, and her attitude towards him softens a little. You do learn to create hard barriers around yourself, when that is your only means of survival.]
I knew a woman, when I was a student. As an infant, some magic was done to her, and a being -- a being some view as a goddess -- was put inside her. I don't know whether that being was good or evil, but I do know the infant was intended to become nothing more than a vessel for her. A tool of the church. A weapon to be used against heretics like myself.
Nonetheless, she made her own choices, and was the bravest person I've ever known.
So I find it easy to believe you have made your own choices as well. Easier now, perhaps. I had thought all four of you might have become the tools of something else. [But it sounds like she no longer thinks so?
Hope this change of heart doesn't bite me, Siz, in the ass.]
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[Because he has little doubt about what they intended him to be. You don't create someone with his kind of power unless you want a weapon to unleash, and he knows well enough how hard it is to move past that.]
Then she must have been someone strong, if she could go against it. I never had to deal with the people who ran those experiments myself.
[Technically. He did probably kill them without actively intending on it.
He sets that thought aside, managing a faint grin at her words.]
But I got there eventually, yeah-- I think I've done pretty well for myself. The boss is the only one I'll let myself be a tool for, and I gave myself out of my own volition that time.
[After a moment where it seems like he might have finished, he adds:]
If we were from the same place, though... I think you might be the kind of person I could have followed, too.
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If it is so, then let follow me here, to the best you are able within the confines of your role. I ask no one for unearned fealty; only that you lend me your strength when the time comes.