[PCs] team trust no bitch aka team hat aka chuuya & caren

[doublesmall]

[but is it really team hat if only caren has one, though? that's the real question here.

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(there is age difference ship content here but nothing nsfw)]

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[sexorcism]

I don't know what that's like.

[She's possibly shitting him, but it's also possible that she's never sat down and thought about it, even before, when she had someone to think about like that.]

[doublesmall]

You're at least, like... teenaged at minimum, right? You really have no idea?

[guess they're having this talk now!! he watches her curiously.]

[sexorcism]

It's less that I have no idea and more that my life has been placed in the service of others. It should not matter what I feel about others for that reason. [That might interfere with performing good works, she thinks, in retrospect.

She rarely thought to remove herself from those rails before, in life. It had made him so angry, hadn't it? That her rage against the machine had only ever been subtle tapping.]

Besides, who would want to admit an infatuation with Assassin?

[doublesmall]

-yeah, that's fair. I think I must have stayed pretty busy, I didn't have all that much time for it either. We probably don't have time now.

[but he was a teenage boy once so like. gestures.]

You didn't have any feelings about who you served, though?

[sexorcism]

Obviously, I was willing to apologize for their transgressions and for my own. I'm sure that came from a love of humanity, of other people.

[It's so hard to explain why her life unfolded a certain way, now that she can't rationalize using beliefs that feel sour and false to her. But she knows she had, without a doubt, desired to serve others.]

But in the end, I believe there was only one other who understood me beyond that. Of course, he was a monster.

[doublesmall]

One can be enough, as long as you've at least got that.

[and as long as they don't leave you like people do-

but anyway.]

What do you mean by monster though-- literally, or just a terrible fucking person?

[sexorcism]

[Of course he's gone. That was the only way the story could have ended.]

Oh, a little of both. [Strangely enough, she seems inordinately fond when she speaks about this terrible person.]

[doublesmall]

Is that your type, then?

[normally he might have more of a filter than that, but here we are, I guess.]

[sexorcism]

Who can say? [It's a fairly cagey answer, but it's not like Caren hasn't given him an evasive response before.]

Most would say it was the right thing, for him to protect the world that so wholly condemned him.

[doublesmall]

Mm. It might be, or it might just be kind of masochistic...

[it kind of sounds like the latter, to chuuya.]

-you wanna tell me about him?

[sexorcism]

What is there to say? [This response, on the other hand, isn't cagey. It's as if she really doesn't know what Chuuya would want to hear about or why it would be important. Her voices is actually small, more emotive than normal.]

I could tell you whatever you'd like, but I am not sure it matters any longer here.