[He will not let Chuuya live, nope. He's endeared by the purring!! It only encourages him to continue! Though he'll pause every so often to gently pet down their centers instead.]
Haha - ah, no, no, it was nothing personal whatsoever. He just wanted someone to kill his clan! The summoning ritual he used was one I invented, intended to call forth spirits categorized as extremely sinister ghouls.
[Like
himself.]
But I suspect he was a pawn in a much larger plan.
Terrible, isn't it? My reputation was so poor that I ended up being classified as one!
[OR MAYBE IT WAS THE LITERAL THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE HE MURDERED IN COLD BLOOD either way...
Also he. Pulls back a little at that, because hey what the fuck he's already being honest, might as well just throw that card on the table, too. Two people already know about it anyway, it's fine.]
I'm not! Though my original body is long gone, haha. The ritual is a sacrificial one in which the summoner gives up their body to the particular malicious spirit they call for. Their soul is destroyed, but the spirit is bound by contract to grant their dying wish.
I mean, I can see how it would have been, but... it still sounds like bullshit to me. You're not extremely sinister.
["chuuya you don't have all the facts" he has the facts he needs, which are that he's known wwx a few weeks now and while he's weird and has definitely done some extreme revenge in the past... look, sometimes other people Deserve It. chuuya doesn't think he's the true evil type.
also chuuya is fucking biased.]
So it's likely something he did as a last-ditch sort of effort, if it would have destroyed his soul... I can get being pushed to that point, I guess. Giving yourself up for someone or something stronger to do what you can't... well, you've pretty much seen me do that already.
[chuuya uses corruption, of course he's like "that's legit", I hate it.]
And if you don't manage to grant that wish... then what?
[CHUUYA IS REALLY FUCKING BIASED and Wei Wuxian actually - feels a pang of guilt, similar to what he feels when Beck talks about how grateful she is to know him. The guilt of understanding that, by omission of his crimes, he's painting a picture of himself that just isn't accurate. A picture that people seem to, for some reason, genuinely like. Bad!
But he just laughs a little, gently tweaking one of Chuuya's ears.]
Mm, well, it is what it is! And Mo Xuanyu was in a pretty rough situation himself, so I can understand why he may have felt pushed to his limits. [His fingers move, gently tugging on Chuuya's bangs instead.] —Similar for you, then?
[As for the question:]
The spirit that can't grant its host's wish will have its soul destroyed by the curse activated upon its summoning. [HE JUST FUCKIN INVENTED THIS SHIT.] But I fulfilled my end a long time ago.
Sort of. What you saw in that memory was-- my ability's something separate from me. I wasn't born with it. Corruption is what happens when I allow it to take over, but it's too much power for my body to sustain... so it's effectively the same trade-off. The difference is that so far, I've had it disabled before it could kill me.
[he lets his bangs be tugged, both his hands burying themselves in wei wuxian's hair, idly toying with it.]
...hey. If you invented something like that-- it wasn't because you wanted to use it yourself, right?
[Hm. Bad!! All of this is bad! His brow furrows a little and he tugs on Chuuya's bangs again, but a little more insistently this time, because there's one part he wants to address before the rest.]
And you said that the person who can disable it isn't your partner anymore, right? [ANOTHER TUG.] So I'm sure you're being as cautious as possible given your position, hm?
[Though at the question, his head cants to the side.]
I'm being as cautious as I can afford to be. If the boss needs me to do something, and it's the only way... I've already accepted it's how I'm most likely to die. For all I know, having an implanted Ability will kill me anyway.
[he doesn't have high hopes for his life expectancy, okay-- but he agreed to give mori his body and blood. he won't complain.
chuuya does swat his hand away at the tugging, though, let him live...! he does at least look relieved at wei wuxian's answer after.]
Good to know you didn't have the same plan, though. It's fine if it was for others to use.
[Chuuya is a foole for giving him even one single out honestly because of course he's immediately taking the chance to flip the conversation. Also, he's legitimately concerned?? FOR MANY REASONS.]
Is that not common where you come from? Having an implanted ability... Things like that don't exist in my world either way, and the only other similar place I've heard all gained theirs through an outside force.
[His hand may have been swatted but it's BACK WITH A VENGEANCE-- Though this time he just smooths Chuuya's hair down, at least.]
You talk pretty lightly of your own life for someone who scolds others for doing the same, you know!
Most of us with abilities are born with them. I was just an experiment.
[he shrugs! but the hair touching is allowed, it seems.]
-and look, I just don't have any illusions about it, all right? My ability's wiped out a lot of enemy groups. Most of them can't touch me, but organized crime's not really built for longevity... besides, we're all there for the boss to use.
[He sure isn't pleased to hear any of this, and he's not much happier over the way Chuuya delivers it. Sometimes you just gotta call a shitty thing like it is and move on with your life, but that doesn't mean he can't be upset on Chuuya's behalf!!]
...Well! You've made it this far and this long, haven't you? Surely that says something about your luck and fortitude.
[Ah, optimism. Whether or not he actually believes it to be true is up in the air, but it can't hurt to just toss it out into the open and hope some merciful god hears and considers making it true!]
Though I do wish better than that for you - better than just relying on fortune.
[About being someone trustworthy - someone worth leaning on in any capacity at all. It's not in his nature to fail those who lean on him, even if it tends to happen despite his best efforts.
anyway somewhere in the distance, lan zhan is getting ready to bust through time and space to murder chuuya on the spot. He, on the other hand, is dumb of ass.]
I can still find a way to visit, don't give up so easily! I want you to see Yunmeng, too, you know - or Gusu! Caiyi City has some of the best restaurants in the whole region!
I will, I will! Don't think for a second I'd leave you alone if I have the chance to come bother you!
[SAID WITH A GRIN but, hm? Hm?? He's peak dumbass but even someone as dense as he is couldn't miss the way Chuuya is watching him, touching his face so tenderly. Granted, noticing it and being able to figure out what the fuck it means are two... different things... And it's probably clear from expression alone that he's just like ??? about this. (wei wuxian as kagachi voice) what could this man possibly want]
Haha, well! Can't say I get to hear that one often. [Or ever!] But with luck it won't be a long goodbye, at least. I'm not a fan of those sorts of goodbyes, myself.
[yeah, he can see that in his expression, and he's dying? chuuya is dying. he eyes him another moment, then exhales a slightly more frustrated huff.]
-c'mon, you really don't get it? What does a guy have to do, huh...
[well. there's always the blunter option, so-
chuuya steals another kiss, more intent this time and almost forceful; there's a kind of softness to it that keeps it from quite getting there, though, and enough intensity that he has to pull back to breathe.
he doesn't say anything else immediately after, his ears twitching.]
[CHUUYA'S DYING AND HE TOOK WEI WUXIAN OUT WITH HIM!! Which is to say, the intensity and simultaneous softness of the kiss startles him and leaves him breathless in more ways than one, and he's left wide-eyed and blinking when Chuuya pulls away. This is absolutely the most taken off his guard he's been in all six weeks he's been here, which says so much about Wei Wuxian as a person, honestly.
He's also! Still visibly baffled!! Though there's a furrow at his brow that seems to indicate he's slowly chewing his way through the obvious possibility right in front of his idiot face - a furrow that indicates some distress, though. SURELY HE'S INTERPRETING THIS WRONG. Surely he's just jumping to wild, wild conclusions because Chuuya's being unreasonably kind to him, ridiculously affectionate!
--Actually, speaking of ridiculous affection... Ah! There's a little light of understanding in his expression, though he's back to looking a little confused soon after.]
—Didn't those cookies only work for one person at a time?
[At... at least Chuuya can probably tell he's not being intentionally obtuse or his usual shitty gremlin self. It is Literally That Hard for him to wrap his mind around the possibility that no someone just genuinely likes him. GOD.]
[his nose wrinkles at the thought-- yes, he can tell wei wuxian's not doing this on purpose, but that makes it no less personally frustrating that this is SO DIFFICULT, lord. he kind of dislikes the thought that it really is that hard an assumption to make, has to wonder why, has to sort of sit on the urge to go threaten anyone who might have made it that way.
in fairness, he'd probably be pretty obtuse about it too.
but he exhales a breath, giving his head a little shake.]
It's not that. It's just you, all right?
You can tell me I'm stupid if you want, trust me, I already know-- but I don't see the point in maybe regretting not saying anything later.
BOY THOUGH THAT'S, hm. That's, hm!! His first thoughts (after the bountiful whats zipping like lightning through his mind) are all different versions of what basically boils down to: haha oh no, I really did trick someone into liking me. It's not even entirely the past he never speaks of, it's everything, and he feels guilty and responsible and horribly selfish. Even now, he manages to keep the bulk of it off of his face - but considering how fine the control he has over his expression usually is, it's probably not hard to track at least some of what crosses this time.
Eventually, it settles into something almost melancholic - somber and soft. He reaches out with careful hands, fingertips ghosting against the sides of Chuuya's face.]
I don't think you're stupid. ...I don't think it's stupid. Haha, you're honestly smarter than I am, thinking about the regrets you might have so far in advance! I've never been good at that.
[Hm, it's hard telling someone "save the affection for someone who deserves it" without actually saying that, but it's hard just saying it, too! Haha, bad. Instead, he just settles on a succinct and quiet:]
I don't know. Saying it anyway if you know nothing's likely to come of it still feels stupid, in a way, but-- better to just get out with it.
[he reaches up for that hand touching his face, lightly lacing their fingers together; chuuya isn't always as good at keeping his own expression in check, so the way it falls despite those words is clear enough, before he gives his head a little shake and forces a smile back into place.]
What're you sorry for, huh? I figured you might not-- you know. Feel similarly.
[he's just really good at attaching to people who don't share it, in one way or another.]
[It sure would be nice if he could get through even one portion of one lifetime without hurting the people around him! But that would just be asking for too much, huh.
He's terrible with words where it counts, honestly, and maybe his actions won't help that much either. He brings their laced hands to his mouth to kiss Chuuya's knuckles and then leans forward: two more, for his forehead, for his lips. It's soft, lingering, apologetic.]
I am fond of you, you know - I like you a lot. [He can't deny that Chuuya's one of the handful of people he's especially tender toward, whose company he enjoys and seeks out more than the rest, as much as he likes almost the entirety of the ship.] And I hate seeing that kind of look on your face.
[Which he assumes he'd be seeing a lot of if he stuck around, haha! He's a mess of a human being in a borrowed body who hasn't experienced love he hasn't been blind to in years and years, and he wants better than himself for someone he cares about.]
[they help, and they also don't-- they're what he wants, but affectionate gestures like that still sting a little considering the situation. not enough for him to give them up, but his grip tightens on wei wuxian's hand as he exhales a slow breath.
not enough, but he's used enough to that.]
-then I'll try not to make you see it.
[a brief huff of a laugh, there--]
Probably for the best anyway, yeah? Even if we did run into each other again-- criminals aren't the best company to keep.
[A sigh! He doesn't seem fussed by the tightened grip, but that's probably because his attention is anchored firmly on Chuuya now. He's terrible with his words, but wouldn't it be even worse if he can't articulate himself well enough to clear up any misunderstandings? Or more terribly still, to avoid creating more?]
I don't want you to have a reason to make that kind of face again. ["I don't want to be the cause of it."] And I don't care about what sort of criminal you are! Goodness. You know, where I come from, just associating with me would be enough for people to hate you. Things like that hardly matter to me.
[Or, well. They don't matter if it's him associating with someone else. Haha, other people though? Absolutely shouldn't be associating with him!]
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Haha - ah, no, no, it was nothing personal whatsoever. He just wanted someone to kill his clan! The summoning ritual he used was one I invented, intended to call forth spirits categorized as extremely sinister ghouls.
[Like
himself.]
But I suspect he was a pawn in a much larger plan.
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[he sounds
pretty dubious, honestly,]
Is that just because of your whole... corpse thing? --wait, are you undead?
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[OR MAYBE IT WAS THE LITERAL THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE HE MURDERED IN COLD BLOOD either way...
Also he. Pulls back a little at that, because hey what the fuck he's already being honest, might as well just throw that card on the table, too. Two people already know about it anyway, it's fine.]
I'm not! Though my original body is long gone, haha. The ritual is a sacrificial one in which the summoner gives up their body to the particular malicious spirit they call for. Their soul is destroyed, but the spirit is bound by contract to grant their dying wish.
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["chuuya you don't have all the facts" he has the facts he needs, which are that he's known wwx a few weeks now and while he's weird and has definitely done some extreme revenge in the past... look, sometimes other people Deserve It. chuuya doesn't think he's the true evil type.
also chuuya is fucking biased.]
So it's likely something he did as a last-ditch sort of effort, if it would have destroyed his soul... I can get being pushed to that point, I guess. Giving yourself up for someone or something stronger to do what you can't... well, you've pretty much seen me do that already.
[chuuya uses corruption, of course he's like "that's legit", I hate it.]
And if you don't manage to grant that wish... then what?
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But he just laughs a little, gently tweaking one of Chuuya's ears.]
Mm, well, it is what it is! And Mo Xuanyu was in a pretty rough situation himself, so I can understand why he may have felt pushed to his limits. [His fingers move, gently tugging on Chuuya's bangs instead.] —Similar for you, then?
[As for the question:]
The spirit that can't grant its host's wish will have its soul destroyed by the curse activated upon its summoning. [HE JUST FUCKIN INVENTED THIS SHIT.] But I fulfilled my end a long time ago.
[Yeah that clan's dead.]
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[he lets his bangs be tugged, both his hands burying themselves in wei wuxian's hair, idly toying with it.]
...hey. If you invented something like that-- it wasn't because you wanted to use it yourself, right?
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And you said that the person who can disable it isn't your partner anymore, right? [ANOTHER TUG.] So I'm sure you're being as cautious as possible given your position, hm?
[Though at the question, his head cants to the side.]
Nope.
[That's.
That's all he says about that.]
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[he doesn't have high hopes for his life expectancy, okay-- but he agreed to give mori his body and blood. he won't complain.
chuuya does swat his hand away at the tugging, though, let him live...! he does at least look relieved at wei wuxian's answer after.]
Good to know you didn't have the same plan, though. It's fine if it was for others to use.
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Is that not common where you come from? Having an implanted ability... Things like that don't exist in my world either way, and the only other similar place I've heard all gained theirs through an outside force.
[His hand may have been swatted but it's BACK WITH A VENGEANCE-- Though this time he just smooths Chuuya's hair down, at least.]
You talk pretty lightly of your own life for someone who scolds others for doing the same, you know!
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[he shrugs! but the hair touching is allowed, it seems.]
-and look, I just don't have any illusions about it, all right? My ability's wiped out a lot of enemy groups. Most of them can't touch me, but organized crime's not really built for longevity... besides, we're all there for the boss to use.
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...Well! You've made it this far and this long, haven't you? Surely that says something about your luck and fortitude.
[Ah, optimism. Whether or not he actually believes it to be true is up in the air, but it can't hurt to just toss it out into the open and hope some merciful god hears and considers making it true!]
Though I do wish better than that for you - better than just relying on fortune.
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[he leans back slightly there, a hand settling at the side of wei wuxian's face as chuuya studies him.]
-you know you're one of the people I trust the most here, don't you?
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Wei Wuxian just smiles though, tilting his head a little to let the weight of it rest against Chuuya's palm.]
Haha, is that so? I'll certainly do my best so that you don't regret it!
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[that gets a little smile from him as well, as chuuya leans in to press a kiss to his lips.
when he leans back again, the smile's still there, but there's also something a little more focused in the way he looks at him.]
XianXian. You know I meant it when I said I'd bring you with me if I could, right?
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[About being someone trustworthy - someone worth leaning on in any capacity at all. It's not in his nature to fail those who lean on him, even if it tends to happen despite his best efforts.
anyway somewhere in the distance, lan zhan is getting ready to bust through time and space to murder chuuya on the spot. He, on the other hand, is dumb of ass.]
I can still find a way to visit, don't give up so easily! I want you to see Yunmeng, too, you know - or Gusu! Caiyi City has some of the best restaurants in the whole region!
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chuuya huffs out a little laugh, there, fingers twining into his hair.]
If you figure it out, you'd better show up, then. But I meant--
[getting this across to someone clueless is so hard, god.]
You're someone it'll be hard to say goodbye to.
[he'll try that, still watching wei wuxian's face, still with that extra attentiveness in his expression as his thumb brushes his cheek.]
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I will, I will! Don't think for a second I'd leave you alone if I have the chance to come bother you!
[SAID WITH A GRIN but, hm? Hm?? He's peak dumbass but even someone as dense as he is couldn't miss the way Chuuya is watching him, touching his face so tenderly. Granted, noticing it and being able to figure out what the fuck it means are two... different things... And it's probably clear from expression alone that he's just like ??? about this. (wei wuxian as kagachi voice) what could this man possibly want]
Haha, well! Can't say I get to hear that one often. [Or ever!] But with luck it won't be a long goodbye, at least. I'm not a fan of those sorts of goodbyes, myself.
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-c'mon, you really don't get it? What does a guy have to do, huh...
[well. there's always the blunter option, so-
chuuya steals another kiss, more intent this time and almost forceful; there's a kind of softness to it that keeps it from quite getting there, though, and enough intensity that he has to pull back to breathe.
he doesn't say anything else immediately after, his ears twitching.]
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He's also! Still visibly baffled!! Though there's a furrow at his brow that seems to indicate he's slowly chewing his way through the obvious possibility right in front of his idiot face - a furrow that indicates some distress, though. SURELY HE'S INTERPRETING THIS WRONG. Surely he's just jumping to wild, wild conclusions because Chuuya's being unreasonably kind to him, ridiculously affectionate!
--Actually, speaking of ridiculous affection... Ah! There's a little light of understanding in his expression, though he's back to looking a little confused soon after.]
—Didn't those cookies only work for one person at a time?
[At... at least Chuuya can probably tell he's not being intentionally obtuse or his usual shitty gremlin self. It is Literally That Hard for him to wrap his mind around the possibility that no someone just genuinely likes him. GOD.]
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[his nose wrinkles at the thought-- yes, he can tell wei wuxian's not doing this on purpose, but that makes it no less personally frustrating that this is SO DIFFICULT, lord. he kind of dislikes the thought that it really is that hard an assumption to make, has to wonder why, has to sort of sit on the urge to go threaten anyone who might have made it that way.
in fairness, he'd probably be pretty obtuse about it too.
but he exhales a breath, giving his head a little shake.]
It's not that. It's just you, all right?
You can tell me I'm stupid if you want, trust me, I already know-- but I don't see the point in maybe regretting not saying anything later.
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BOY THOUGH THAT'S, hm. That's, hm!! His first thoughts (after the bountiful whats zipping like lightning through his mind) are all different versions of what basically boils down to: haha oh no, I really did trick someone into liking me. It's not even entirely the past he never speaks of, it's everything, and he feels guilty and responsible and horribly selfish. Even now, he manages to keep the bulk of it off of his face - but considering how fine the control he has over his expression usually is, it's probably not hard to track at least some of what crosses this time.
Eventually, it settles into something almost melancholic - somber and soft. He reaches out with careful hands, fingertips ghosting against the sides of Chuuya's face.]
I don't think you're stupid. ...I don't think it's stupid. Haha, you're honestly smarter than I am, thinking about the regrets you might have so far in advance! I've never been good at that.
[Hm, it's hard telling someone "save the affection for someone who deserves it" without actually saying that, but it's hard just saying it, too! Haha, bad. Instead, he just settles on a succinct and quiet:]
—I'm sorry.
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[he reaches up for that hand touching his face, lightly lacing their fingers together; chuuya isn't always as good at keeping his own expression in check, so the way it falls despite those words is clear enough, before he gives his head a little shake and forces a smile back into place.]
What're you sorry for, huh? I figured you might not-- you know. Feel similarly.
[he's just really good at attaching to people who don't share it, in one way or another.]
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He's terrible with words where it counts, honestly, and maybe his actions won't help that much either. He brings their laced hands to his mouth to kiss Chuuya's knuckles and then leans forward: two more, for his forehead, for his lips. It's soft, lingering, apologetic.]
I am fond of you, you know - I like you a lot. [He can't deny that Chuuya's one of the handful of people he's especially tender toward, whose company he enjoys and seeks out more than the rest, as much as he likes almost the entirety of the ship.] And I hate seeing that kind of look on your face.
[Which he assumes he'd be seeing a lot of if he stuck around, haha! He's a mess of a human being in a borrowed body who hasn't experienced love he hasn't been blind to in years and years, and he wants better than himself for someone he cares about.]
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not enough, but he's used enough to that.]
-then I'll try not to make you see it.
[a brief huff of a laugh, there--]
Probably for the best anyway, yeah? Even if we did run into each other again-- criminals aren't the best company to keep.
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[A sigh! He doesn't seem fussed by the tightened grip, but that's probably because his attention is anchored firmly on Chuuya now. He's terrible with his words, but wouldn't it be even worse if he can't articulate himself well enough to clear up any misunderstandings? Or more terribly still, to avoid creating more?]
I don't want you to have a reason to make that kind of face again. ["I don't want to be the cause of it."] And I don't care about what sort of criminal you are! Goodness. You know, where I come from, just associating with me would be enough for people to hate you. Things like that hardly matter to me.
[Or, well. They don't matter if it's him associating with someone else. Haha, other people though? Absolutely shouldn't be associating with him!]
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